i don't feel lonely in this moment.
i'm not sad or anything like that.
more than anything i just want to feel a connection.
if you read this, or have seen this, let me know some how.
i want to know in your own voice:
what does god look like?
what's your favorite song and why do you like it?
when someone kisses you, and means it, and you kiss them, and mean it, do you ever see things in your mind? or imagine things? what are you feeling when it happens?
what makes you scared? not like spiders or the dark, but like something on the inside like not knowing where you go when you die or the person you love the most leaving you or maybe when they die.
when you think of a moment in time where you are the happiest, what is happening? how does your body feel in this moment? does it feel different then when your body feels other times?
i want to feel inspired in a real way. if you're looking at this and feel like you want to feel like this too, i want to hear from you. i want secret penpals who share romantic secrets and unspeakable thoughts and the flaws you know you have but can never say out loud. i want to hear all of it.
what do you sing when you do laundry? do you ever sing when you're alone even? what's your favorite thing to do when you're alone that you could never do if someone else was there? and if you were caught or found out, you would just die.
do you believe in magic? what kind? have you ever seen anything you thought was magical? do you want to be magical? if you were, what would you do?
these are the things i need to know so badly. i wish i could ask people these sorts of things all the time but most people are put off my any sort of realness and if you ask them anything like this out loud you are percieved as weird or crazy and you never get anything out of it anyway.
if you want this, or if you need this. this dialogue. or a connection. i want you to call me or im me or email me. i want to hear what you have to say.
i want to feel inspired in such a real way that i can't do it alone.
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I don't know what God looks like, but I feel him. I guess I see him in all true mouths of joy and goosbump windblows. He looks like clear water, spongy, and warmsoft like a grandaddy. Today I love Niel Young's "tell me why," autumn and all.
I like the kiss of my only man. He is smores in my eyes and I want to laugh and think about cookies and cliff jump. I see wooden home, the log cabin alpine mountain type. It's warm and safe and exposing and combustive...I hate the thought of him dying, I hate getting on an airplane and visualizing my bones and sinew ripping apart and igniting in a crash. ..........."stupid cigarette smelly wachine machine." -the laundry and me
magic, yes, but invisible scary and ultimate, I don't want to see it again. diamonds and jester spiders tangoing red lights...no more.
i don't know who you are, but right now, in this moment especially, i really appreciate your words.
i'm surprised anyone still looks at this. you should reveal yourself, i would like to talk to you.
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